Day1 report
today I will go out for 3 hours.
I will meet 10 women.
my sticking point:
I will get as many numbers as possible.
Day1 Report: Solo. There was beautiful women everywhere. I managed to approach 6 out of 10 women in the 3 hours. The approaches were fucking abysmal. I’ve been doing this stuff for over a year now, and now know that when it comes to the crunch, this is all I can muster - A handful of conversations that I was lucky to get over 5 seconds. The last girl blew me out completely.
I’ve been always avoided pressure based targets like this because I know that I can’t achieve them. Normally, I go about my day to day business, and somehow I end up with the odd number. I’m great at conversations when I do it like this. I can go for hours when there is no pressure, but its just not enough anymore.
Today is the angriest I have been in years. Every time I failed it welled up inside me. The last woman I saw, I shouted for her to turn around, seeing that she wasn’t going to. I mumbled to myself, and it felt like the last straw. My throat began to seize up and eventually on the way home, I broke down and started crying.
This was the reality of my pain. I’m going to have to fight through this now again and again, until it goes away.