Unravel one mess, and the rest unravels too

Posted on 21st February 2008 by unwindmy in Gaming, Goals, Insights, Journal, Relationships - Tags:

Today I went to town to find a job. Find a job and find a new girlfriend.

I finally got around to listening to an audiobook of the The Game by Neil Strauss. It taught me one important lesson:

You do not choose women. They choose you.

I have always been with the mindset that I could choose if I was prepared to work for it. Now I see that this is the womans role, and not the mans. The best chance I have to be with a girl I actually want is to play the numbers game. The more women I am around, the more likely it is that the one I want will pick me.

I walked around town looking for women that I liked the look of. I have begun to realise recently that these women are everywhere. My mind is truly unbinding itself, and meeting women is just not a big deal anymore. I approached 5 sexy girls. No takers. This is numbers, I have to go higher.

Something else I have just realised as I write this, is that I have a complementary opposite. This is the woman I should be looking for as my girlfriend. If I meet a woman who is not my equal then we can still have sex, but its probably not going to work out. This rationalisation is a big deal.

On the way home I started to listen to an audiobook titled The Energy of Money by Maria Nemeth. I’ve only listened to an hour but wow, i’d had an epiphany!

I’ve always been careful with my money, never spending it and holding on to what I have. All of a sudden I realise that the reason I used to have a lack of women in my life, is the same reason that I lack money now.

A poverty mentality.

This same personality trait permeates throughout my life and keeps me from success.

This is the reason why I have a sense that my growth has become exponential. As I unravel one problem, the others unravel too.

You know what this means?

I’m going to have a lot of money in my life!

beyond that, I’ll have to wait and see…and blog.

No more love for atmosphere, except his own

Posted on 20th February 2008 by unwindmy in Insights, Journal, Relationships

Becci and I are no more. She told me that she no longer loves me. I took it to the end. I burnt every bridge. Not because I didn’t now what else to do, but because I owed it to myself.

If life is full of what if’s, then one is not living.

I do not feel the broken heart that I used to feel in these situations. I gave it my all. There are no why questions left to ask. No regrets for the mistakes I made. We went on a journey together and now it is over. I look forward to the next one. My heart feels full of anticipation.