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Today I went to town to find a job. Find a job and find a new girlfriend.

I finally got around to listening to an audiobook of the The Game by Neil Strauss. It taught me one important lesson:

You do not choose women. They choose you.

I have always been with the mindset that I could choose if I was prepared to work for it. Now I see that this is the womans role, and not the mans. The best chance I have to be with a girl I actually want is to play the numbers game. The more women I am around, the more likely it is that the one I want will pick me.

I walked around town looking for women that I liked the look of. I have begun to realise recently that these women are everywhere. My mind is truly unbinding itself, and meeting women is just not a big deal anymore. I approached 5 sexy girls. No takers. This is numbers, I have to go higher.

Something else I have just realised as I write this, is that I have a complementary opposite. This is the woman I should be looking for as my girlfriend. If I meet a woman who is not my equal then we can still have sex, but its probably not going to work out. This rationalisation is a big deal.

On the way home I started to listen to an audiobook titled The Energy of Money by Maria Nemeth. I’ve only listened to an hour but wow, i’d had an epiphany!

I’ve always been careful with my money, never spending it and holding on to what I have. All of a sudden I realise that the reason I used to have a lack of women in my life, is the same reason that I lack money now.

A poverty mentality.

This same personality trait permeates throughout my life and keeps me from success.

This is the reason why I have a sense that my growth has become exponential. As I unravel one problem, the others unravel too.

You know what this means?

I’m going to have a lot of money in my life!

beyond that, I’ll have to wait and see…and blog.

Now that I am back in Leeds I feel refreshed. This place is my home, and now I know it. It is time to start building momentum in my life. I am no longer playing with fear.

First of all, there are a few changes to be made:

Gemma - I sat down with her on Sunday, she made it clear our situation. I’m not in the habit of keeping women around in my life just for nothing. I was happy to help her before, but I feel like I am being used somewhat now. So the next time I see her I will make it clear to her that if she wants my help and advice and nothing else, then she will have to pay for it. Right now as I have no job, buying drinks will be fine.

Becci - I told Becci that if I ever came back that I would come back for her. Today I understood a little more about her games. Every time we talk, her levels of drama get more and more elaborate. Right now its at the point that she is threatening to ring the police on me if I continue to pursue her. Its all bollocks of course, as the moment I tell her I am deleting her number, she caves in and agrees to see me. This is all getting a bit stupid now, when I see her next she is going to have to commit to me properly or I am going to drop her for good. I love her to bits, but this game playing is intolerable. So if she agrees to put a sack in it then I will reward her. If she can’t then I will bar her number and vow to never see her again. Its one or the other.

If things don’t turn out how I have planned. I will commit to going out solid until I meet some new women. No excuses, I will hammer it.

Now I have a situation with unemployment now. I will sort out my CV and get it updated and then start firing it off to various retail places in town. I’ll also inquire about a jobs in music shop. I’ve always wanted to do that. It leave it to chance as to where I end up. I welcome the new experience!

Music production school - I want to get this idea up and running. Now is the time to get it going. I will arranged interviews with the appropriate people.

I will design a business card and get it printed by the end of the week. Then I’ll have something to hand out when I go out to meet people.

Move out of my parents house - It’s time that I moved out and lived somewhere else. I want to live near the town center. If Becci sorts herself out I’ll live with her. If not then i’ll find somebody else. I want to live in a nice flat. All my earnings will go on my rent and towards nice food. I’ll hopefully put a few pounds away for saving too. I’m not interested in material goods so I shouldn’t need to earn too much.

Getting back in shape - I have played with my diet and weight over the last few months. I’ve learnt many things, but now I want to get a little bigger again.

Build a new wardrobe - Its time to put the fashion advice I have received from the bootcamp and from friends to practice. I want to revamp my wardrobe over the next 6 months. To speed things up, I will make a pile of old clothes and take them along to Oxfam.

I book my driving test and pass. This has been long overdue. Time to get mobile.

Start giving to charity - The fundraising deal taught me loads. I want to do more charity work, whether it be volunteering or just plain donating.